Have you ever opened your journal to find you’ve skipped a whole week of your life? I did that today. I was expecting to open my journal to the next clean page, so I could set up this week’s spread and discovered that last week’s spread was still completely empty. Not only was is empty, but I hadn’t even finished setting it up!
If you have a chronic illness, you can probably relate. Flares can be so draining that you don’t even manage the simplistic of tasks like picking up your book to read, or opening your journal to see what’s on your to-do list. Partly because the book is just too heavy and partly because having things not ticked is hard to accept sometimes. We don’t like all those lists of undone tasks.
So whole weeks can pass you by while you rest and wait for your body to do whatever incredible tasks it is doing to recover and heal from that one thing you shouldn’t have eaten or that one thing you shouldn’t have done last week.
In my case one week had passed, to the day. Instead of trying to fill in last week’s spread, an impossible task as memory loss is a super dominant symptom of mine at the moment (clearly), I’m going to just use last week’s spread for this week. I had filled in last Wednesday with some things that needed doing, but I hadn’t even done them all, so I’ll just continue from there as if that list was for today. Problem solved.
I honestly feel a little proud of myself, because things like this would really upset me prior to falling ill with ME/CFS. Every time I messed up on my schedule, didn’t do something on my list or ate the wrong thing while on a specific type of diet, I’d just get so upset with myself and end up quitting or redoing everything from scratch as if it was the plan that was flawed.
In reality, as I’ve since learned, I am the one that is flawed – we all are – and we will make mistakes and fall off the wagon from time to time, and that’s okay. The key to success is getting up and carrying on every time you do. So this is me getting up and moving forward despite having skipped an entire week in my journal.
I was always trying to play catch-up with my own life, trying to rectify mistakes before moving on. Now, when I drop the ball, I let go of what I’ve dropped and move forward from there. It’s a much less stressful way to live.
I haven’t done one of these flip through posts in a while. My journal has evolved a bit since the last post and I’m excited to show you what I’m using now. Things are definitely more streamline and simplified. It’s no use using a bullet journal if it’s only complicating your life, so by reviewing what worked this month and what didn’t, you can focus on what enhances your life and get rid of the clutter, even in your journal!Continue reading
If you are anything like me, you collect lovely journals and have a stack of them just waiting to be used. You never know when the need will arise to use a notebook, but when that moment comes, you’ll be ready!
I’ve started and restarted many of them. Giving up on one purpose and then assigning another a few months later. I’m not good at being consistent with things, I seem to have trouble with religiously sitting down with a journal to write thoughts, feelings or prayers. And the same thing applies to my art journals.
The only journal I have had success in maintaining over extended periods of time is the bullet journal. I believe this is because of the way my bujo was designed: by me, as needed, and it’s super flexible.
Have you ever tried using a bullet journal?
I discovered the bullet journal craze in 2016 while I was looking for a way to track my symptoms, medications, activity levels and appointments.
Brain fog makes keeping on top of things quite difficult and I’ve always enjoyed the idea of keeping a journal, in fact I collect notebooks and paper because I always imagine all the use I could get out if them.
Bullet journals in particular are very versatile and personalisable which is perfect since we all have different needs.
I used my first one for many months, I almost filled the whole book, but at one point my therapist told me to stop keeping track of everything because she thinks this keeps me focused on the wrong things.
I took up her challenge and stopped taking notes, but I didn’t get any better, the problem is not in my head or my thinking, I am quite at peace with my condition and the season I’m in right now.
The problem is physical, and keeping track of things is a way for me to monitor my progress and figure out where I might need to adjust my routine. Continue reading
I’m starting a new journal tomorrow with the start of the new month. I want to track my health: supplements, diet, symptoms, etc as well as my to do lists and blogging ideas and my schedules or routines, etc.
This is an old notebook from Poundland. I love these though, and have a few of them I have used over the years. They have lined pages, excellent for note taking, but not so great for art.
I might end up sticking pages together if I decide to get creative in here and it runs through a page. I’m going to try not to be so focused on details and perfection in this book, and rather use it as a practice of patience and acceptance of flaws.
I’d already used this book for notes when I used to attend bible study in London, but there weren’t many notes in this one, so I pulled out the used pages and have started fresh.
I’ll probably share some internal pages occasionally, but with my shaky hands, my handwriting is really bad. It’s very different to drawing and lettering. Lettering is really just drawing large letters and doesn’t require such fine motor skills as regular writing.
If you’ve ever received a letter or card from me, you’ll know what I’m talking about!
The cover was rather plain, and if I am going to use the book, then I’ll need to love the book, so I decided to decorate it this morning.
It took a few shifts and spanned a few hours, so I’m thoroughly exhausted now and resting, but I’m super pleased with how it turned out.
What do you think?