Had a lovely quiet holiday weekend, but did enjoy my first outing in a couple of months on Christmas day. Was super blessed to have such understanding and considerate friends and that the Lord gave me just enough strength and relief to be able to really enjoy the day! Praise God!
Our friends came to pick us up and brought us back later in the evening. We got to spend a quiet and fun evening with the 2 of them in their new flat. There was a wonderful roast dinner of a Cornish Game Hen each, stuffed with an incredibly good wild rice stuffing. Green bean casserole and freshly baked bread were also on the menu, as was homemade mulled wine.
Although I’ve been in bed for the last couple of days since, today I felt quite good generally. Just my hips and coccyx tried to kill me each time I stood up. So much pain! I washed a few dishes this evening and tried to make a rice salad for dinner, had to stop and get back to bed in the middle as I got so weak and dizzy and felt I would collapse… Of course my sister finished off the dinner for us. So glad to have her here!
Then by 9-ish pm I was utterly exhausted again and had to lie down. I think I managed to fall asleep by around ten and slept for only an hour. Woke with the left side of my body numb and tingling… Like Pins and needles on steroids. Left arm and leg. Dead. So my sis suggested I sit up in bed to help the blood flow back to my limbs, it did help, and here I am at 2 am still awake…
Last night I also lost feeling in my left leg. I also had to sleep by ten and slept until ten this morning! Struggling to wake up in the mornings, not like me to sleep so late in the day. My mind has been all over the place too. Hard to form sentences at times, I’m forgetting words, or what I’m saying mid-sentence, it’s frustrating. Safe to say I’m in some sort of flare within a flare.
Spending my time in bed colouring, surfing Internet, Netflix and daydreaming… Also known as recovery mode or what I like to call vegging. Minimum exertion activities. And by minimum exertion I mean activities that require little to no brain or body exertion! Typing is exhausting. And I’m getting sleepy again too… By the way, I haven’t showered in days, so I haven’t taken any new photos in a while. I’m hoping tomorrow can be a shower day!
Sweet dreams all. xx
A couple of days ago we had some gorgeous sun after a few dark and dreary days… Here I’d just got up and was getting dressed when I realised how warm the sun was and decided to sit right there and collect some sunshine D! Only managed ten minutes in that chair, but it was lovely and warm.
My flat is so tiny, here I’m sitting right in the middle, halfway to the bathroom (top right), kitchen (behind me) and my bed (on the left side where photo is being taken from)… You might be able to see my walking frame standing on the right side of me too…
I love the sunshine so much, the warmth really brings a sense of wellbeing and eases the aches a bit. Not looking forward to a long winter, but it will make those sunny moment that much more amazing!!
Hopefully you can’t tell how horribly hairy my legs are or how one has been partially epilated while the other remains fully furry! Just had to stop after three lines up my leg… Take it in shifts. Might do some more today actually.
I know it’s not necessary, like painting ones nails, but it does make you feel better… Well, it makes me feel better anyway. Still hate seeing how my legs have deconditioned so much, no shape, no tone or muscle, just skin and bones which are now easily felt – it’s grosses me out that I can feel my own skeleton!! lol… But I know that one day I’ll be able to do a bit more activity and rebuild my muscles again. Till then it’s a matter of making sure I don’t lose them completely and then lose the ability to move myself.
So Maintaining movement, however little it might be now, to keep the joints and muscles as mobile and strong as I can now. Without overdoing things and making my general wellbeing worse. It’s a fine balancing act trying not to boom and bust… I tend to do too much and crash.
So grateful for all the help I get at home (my sis) and through the NHS (my therapist). PraiseGod!
When unforeseen problems force me to go out despite severe ME/cfs, things can get pretty rough.
I had to go out today, needed to send off some paperwork, but my printer ran out of ink again - just changed it about two weeks ago! I needed to print off a load of sheets, so I had to take a bus to get that done at one place, then off on another bus to find a post office to send it.
By the time I got to post office my legs were not working properly anymore, it was like I was wading through lead or mercury, let's just say Nutella (have to keep things positive!). I had shooting pains all over the place, so was reduced to waddling at snails pace (seriously) at one point I thought I wouldn't make it across the road, but the bus driver was patient and waited for me to get safely out of his/her way.